in your eyes

Its been over a year...

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 07:34:45 GMT

since i posted on here i guess i have been up to more important things like work and whatnot so yea idk if i am still going to post or not i bet no one reads this anyways so its not like it matters lol

so here i go again.....

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 02:21:25 GMT

well its been i while since i have posted an entry and lot of things have changed
first off i dont work at MJR anymore i got fired for saying something was stupid so that was stupid lol and then i fot a job at the lucky dragon behind my house and worked there for about a month and then they laid me off because the chicks brother came back so now they call if they need me which is cool cuz its a litte extra cash i can make along with my new job that i got at a group home which i think it gonna be cool except for the fact that i have to go and take these training classes and miss school and dont get to actually start working until february and speaking of february on the 2nd i get to go see INCUBUS which really excites me since they are my "MUSE"!! umm what eles what eles....let me see....well i have also met the man that i want to marry but i dont think that it will ever happen since he lives like forever away and dosent even know that he is the cutest boy that i have ever seen in my entire life but thats cool if its meant to be i guess something will happen with that but who knows cuz lord know that there have been lots and lots of ppl that i have wanted to "marry" or that i have been "in love with" but this kid is adorable and kelly said that i should marry him because we make a cute couple so thats a go right there lol but who knows cuz i sure as hell dont blah but at least i dont feel depressed and shit like i did before so thats a plus im not mopping over this kid that dosent really care abut me even though i have known him forever! and im really happy about that im over him finally and im over everyone eles that made me feel like shit because they didnt notice that i was there and whatnot so...idk what eles to write hmmm....well i guess thats it for now
peace out motherfuckers!!!

?????

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 06:35:45 GMT

why does nothing ever go the way i want it to? why do i always feel like this? whats wrong with me? why not me? when am i going to be happy? when am going to get what i want? why do i envy what other have? why cant i have what others have no matter how small or fleeting? when will it be my turn? why are my feelings always unrequited? will they ever be requited? if so who will it be? when will it happen? will i ever be as happy as i want to be?

all questions i ask my self.....

holy shit

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 06:47:15 GMT

dude this has been like the most exciting weekend ever!
well it all started when me and tracy and megan went to dennys after work. well we were sitting there and then this big group of guys come in and where like cool whatev so then they come and sit in the smoking section by us and one of the kids was just standing by the table cuz there were no more chairs. so tracy was like well you can sit with us, so he did.
then this other kid came and sat with us. these two boys are jordan and tim. so we are talking to them and then donny comes over and starts to kinda talk to us so here the three of us are sitting in dennys talking to this group of guys...come to find out that they just played at the modern exhange and they are on tour and are from new jersey and kentucky/tennesee. the new jersey boys are the river bottom nightmare and the kentucky/tennesee boys are horizontal orange. so we all leave at the same time and they dont know how to get to whereever they are going to shower and nap or whatever b4 they get back on the road so they ask for directions and we give them to them and so the three of us girls got in the car and decided to follow them and then we decided just to show them how to get to where they needed to be. so we finally get to this house and we talk to them outside for a bit and tracy made out with tim and whatnot and we said our goodbyes and left. well then saturday was robs birhtday so we all went out on the boat so i had to follow the boat on the jet ski to wherever we were going which i thought was sugar island so then we end up in canada cuz thats where robs dad takes us so yea i got a long island ice tea and it was amazing! so then on the way home we got pulled over by the boat cops and rob got arrested for drunk boating so his dad had to bail him out so that was a fun end to the evening and then today me and tracy took a road trip to see the boys of horizontal oragne cuz they broke down in marshell mi so we drove an hour and a half there and back to see these cool dudes. we just sat around their hotel room and watched movies and hung out its was an amazing time and i loved this weekend like whoa!

$3.36 please!!!

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 04:42:50 GMT

so yea im just sitting here and everyone keeps telling me to update my lj so i am and i have noting to talk about. well me and rachel were driving in trenton today and we saw two kids that looked like they were 12 and one ran a red light and it was funny. hmmmm idk. i like to eat cheese! my brothers crazy ex is on the phone with my mom trying to get her to talk to my brother so that he will talk to her but he dosent want to cuz shes crazy and keeps calling and now shes like stalking him. but ne way im done im gonna listen to them talk

so fucking over it

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 20:09:01 GMT

so im over it all the bullshit and drama its totally ridiculous and stupid i just decided that i dont want to deal with it so im not going to im just gonna say fuck it its squashed and im over it

so theres this kid...

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 06:53:39 GMT

so theres this kid that i have known for a few months now and i have liked him since like october right you would think that he would notice but no. this kid is blind when it comes to me i guess. all he can see are skinny girls with blond hair and not a bigger girl with brown hair. it ridiculous i feel like it has been so obvious that i like him and that i have been trying to elude to it when he is around but then all of a sudden there is this girl that he likes but get this he has know her for like three days and is "in love with her" or some shit and it makes me angry because there i am all like hello dude what the fuck are you doing i thoght things were kinda going in the right direction here but i guess i was wrong severly wrong. i dont want thigns to work out with him and this girl but then i dont want him to get hurt but then i do because of the way i feel so i dont know whats going on with them at the monent last i heard it wasent going so well but they were still hanging out and shit so i have no idea what the deal is and its making me angry geez why does he have to be so blind

well this sucked

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 06:39:28 GMT

why does this always happen to me
first prom now this
when will it be my turn

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 06:17:02 GMT

well i am over the whole boy that i want to come home thing. he can stay there for all i care i dont want to deal with it anymore. its over. i dont like him like that anymore and i have moved on. it makes me happy that i can say that and know that its true of course i still love the kid and all but i am totally over all of his bullshit and everything eles that i put up with from him. but then there is the fact that i am a sad lonley girl that does want someone to love and to love her back and whatnot so i think that i need to find someone. god forget think i know that i need to find someone. someone that wont treat me that way and things of that sort but yea its late and i have to go to school so im out

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 06:01:21 GMT

so there is this person that i really miss and i really want to see him but i wonder if i will ever see him again hell forget ever see him again how about ever talk to him again. well i dont fucking know what to do about it maybe i will get over him maybe not but i hope i do unless he has something to say about it which i dont really think he does i think that he could give two shits about me ohh well i guess thats the way it is

my theories

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 22:00:10 GMT

the first theory that i will share is my theory on the show Lost
so there are the others right so whats their deal where did they come form well i think that they may be the people that worked for the iniciative or whatever thats why they know the island so well because they were there since the begining and basicaly built the place and know how its ran and i know if you watch the show your asking well then why arnt they still in the hatches and whatnot well the incident caused them to not be able to use most of them. there may be one elsewhere on the island that they live in and is still functional and they have contact with the outside world and thats where the whole its a test thing comes in but thats not what i want to talk about. they know that desmond is down in the hatch pusing he button and so hes got that coverd...hey hey hey i just thought of something that maybe desond is the orginizer of this particular experiment that is taking place on the island he arranged for all these poeple to come together and gets them into the hatch and then leaves and goes and hangs out on the other side of the island with the others and speaking of desmond we havent seen him since he ran out of the hatch about a month ago so where is he but anyway beack to the others. i think that they are the people who started the experiments and then when everything went wrong they had to fight their own creations to survie on an island that they made so what makes them attack the tailies and not the other lostaways i think that they may be conducting two experiments one with the talies about how they react when they are picked off and then the beach crew is the conrtoll and the talies are the experimental group well i could go on and on but i will continue this theory at a latter date but on to the next theory.

the next theory is that god is an alien. but now is not the time for me to expand on this because i am hungery and gilmore girls is coming on so i will contine with the alien theory latter today maybe

max

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 22:45:42 GMT

well today i went and put my dog to sleep. he was like 14yrs old and jumped off the second floor balconey in july. he was the second dog that i had ever had and i am gonna miss that son of a bitch. he was my pal ya know but i dont feel really bad since he was so old and we buried him in the yard so its not like hes totally gone god this is weird. so anyway i may start to cry so i am gonna go now

what a fucking shitbox! and i mean it this time!

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 04:41:16 GMT

what the fuck is wrong with this kid! why the fuck is he so ridicuous when it come to girls? why cant he just tell the truth? if anyone knows the answers to these questions please let me know because i cant figure aaron out. well for the moment i am not friends with the kid and i dont know how long the moment will last. probably a while because he fucked it all up. he fucking pisses me off so bad. i cant stand it. he needs to quit being such a girl. he needs to stand up and stop letting everything affect him so bad. god theres so much more to say but i cant get it all out on here so peace out motherfucker and if your reading this aaron peace the fuck out to you and i dont want to talk to you for a while now unless you have something really good to say
by the way im so fucking tired of people saying that they want to hang out and then blowing me off its fucking shady

SHIT!

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 05:25:12 GMT

what am i going to do about this i have no clue anyone that knows what im talking about which would be rachel....help me out here man we need to come up with a plan but first i need to figure out how i feel about all this. well fuck
HEY JOHN STAMOS IS GONNA BE ON ER SOON AND THAT MAKES ME REALLY FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

learn to live the unexamined life

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 08:13:12 GMT

well life should be danced through but i think that you need to find the right partner because even though dancing is fun by yourself dancing with someone eles is so much better. i would like to live the unexamined life but i am so lame and dont do anyting but i guess thats the problem but i would want to live it with someone ya know to examine it together. hmmmm interesting thought. showtunes tell you so much about life. its amazing. i wish someone would tell me that we deserve each other and then ask me to dance. god im so weird. but that how you dance through life i guess. but i dont know i have only ever been on the sidelines never on the dance floor. prom should have gone so much more differently if the world would allow me a little happiness he would have asked me and not have gone with her and we would have had the time of our lives and dont the dirty dancing dance(j/k i would only do the dirty dancing dance with swazye----BABY OH BABY----just for you KP cuz i knew you your thinking it and giggling to yourself) anyway i think that i have to go to bed but i cant believe him i cant believe that he cant see it what an idiot

the best party ever

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 02:41:35 GMT

so about two weeks ago now there wast a party this party was going well untill these bitches called and then two girls at the party got on the phone and bitched to the bitches on the phone they told the girls where we were because they were drunk and so two girls at the party had a little tiff because on was making out in the car with the others man and so i went to the car and told them the other girl was pissed and while i was walking back to the house this dude hauls ass up to the house and i was like who the fuck are you and then the kid in the house opened the door because he thought it was me or the two in the car comming and he got laid out in the front room and so me and this other girl were keeping our boys in the house and the bitches boys out the house and so some kid was comming up behind me so i called to the dude in the car and he came out and started to beat the shit out of this kid. the boys realized that they werent getting out the front door so they went around and the kid trying to get in jumped off the porch and went to find them as the boys came out the back one pucnhed the kid and the other kicked him meanwhile im trying to get the one guy off the kid and then one of the bitches came up and the girl that was the target of the phone call started to punch her and the other girl got on top of her and started punching her so the girl that was helping me keep out boys in and theirs out gripped the girl up by her hair and threw her into the street and she started talking shit so the girl from the party started going after her again and i grabbed her arm and threw her toward the house and told her to get inside and then the cops showed up and everyone went inside then the boys and one girl went out the back door and hopped the fence and ran finally the cops left(or so it seemed)and everyone made it back to the house. everyone eles decided that they wanted to live because they were scared to stay at the house so as we left i drove with this one dude and everyone eles left in another car. i followed them and i stopped at a light or something and we saw a cop and then we were driving down the street a cop hauled ass behind me and and passed me and so the kid two wayed the other car and they were like holy shit the cop just passed us and then as we passed a strip mall the cop comes out and pulls them over me and this kid were like oh shit and so i drove him all the way home to romeo and we found out that all of them got arrested exceot for this one girl and the boys were charged with agrivated persons contributing to minors and drunk driving the two girls were charged with mip and one was charged with open house party so them me and this kid came back down here and as we were on our way back my parents called and one of the girls called my house and asked my rents to come and get her atm card and get her out. so then we found out that the card only got out $100 a day so i had to get $400 out of the bank and bail her out needless to say it was the BEST PARTY EVER!!!!!!

tonic john tag-along

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 02:21:06 GMT

well last sunday me kelly john mellisa and heather went to tonic. well the party began when kelly asked john to buy vodka and energy drinks. well that all went as planned and then i was declared designated driver. well all the girls drank in the back seat of heaters car and got loud and ridiculous the whole way there and john tried to sleep cuz he was sick and whatnot. well then we got there and the girls went and danced the night away as me and john sat and talked about elvis and quantum leap and then we came to kelly and how she drinks alot and so on and so forth. then kelly got this kid kicked out because she drank his champaign. she was so proud of herself. well then they found these other guys and talked with them and then around 1:45 we left and then the girls quieted down and john fell asleep and we decided to eat at arthurs and then john wanted to go home so we took him home and then went back to arthurs and ate and then took melissa and heather back to melissas and then me and kelly went home all in all it was a fun time and then kelly set out on a mission that started about 3 months ago when she set me and john up on a blind date and he didnt show so she talked to him on monday and didnt say much because she was watching football. well then i talked to her while i was at school and told her that he probably liked her and thats why he asked about her and rob. well i went over to kellys the other day and she told me that after a lot of coaxing he finally told her that he likes her but there was still a possibility with me or whatever and i was like fucking sweet another dude to add to the likes kelly list so for it has two people the first being nick and the second being john and i dont care so much about john because i barely know the kid but its nick that i care about and i know its not really kellys fault shes just very flirty and whatnot but it still sucks that everyone likes her and im just the tag-along and thats the way it will always be i suppose but i hope not maybe one day she will be the tag-along and

holy crap im in college now

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 19:57:02 GMT

well im in college now and it sucks. its just like high school but bigger and a little harder. and at the moment im trying to do this survey for my psyc class but its slow and retarded and its 2hrs long but thats cool cuz then i only have like an hour of research left to do and thats another thing that sucks in college you have to do all these extra things and read on your own so now i have to learn how to self motivate myself and get all my shit done and get it done well and now after this survey i have to go and take notes on the microscope packet that i got for my bio lab and be ready for a test on it tomarrow and do a lab report. gd i have so much to do right now and its crazy so i gota go

jail! what!

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 05:54:04 GMT

ok so today someone form dearborn jail called me i have no idea who it is not a fucking clue so i called there and the 1st guy was like well i will transfer you to booking and you can ask if anyone called you from there and i was like ok and then the 2nd guy was mean and when i asked if he could tell me if anyone called me from there he was all 200 people work here i cant tell you anything grrr and i was like well ok then and so whoever called me is sol cuz i couldnt get anything out of the people there so whoever you are im sorry that i couldnt help ya and i hope that if you are still there that you dont get but raped by any of the other dudes there or anything and if anyone eles knows anything let me know cuz im really intrested to know who would call me of all people to come and get them out of jail
sarah

kevins jeep

Thu, 26 May 2005 21:40:53 GMT

well so after prom we were at laurens and we decided to go through kevins jeep because he left prom early to go party and what not so we went through it and found a whole bunch of crazy shit and we found a car chalk marker and we you can just imagine where that lead so we took the marker and we wrote all over it we wrote kevin loves lauren on the back kindof the class of 05 fix me im broke and all kinds of stuff the best was that we wrote influence on the windsheild above the driver side so that when he was driving he would be under the influence lol it was amazing so we took pictures of it and went and took the rest of our picutres to cvs got up the next morning and got them and copied them so i have many prom pictures and more to come cuz i have to get some of beccas and some of kellys so that will be sweet. i really want to go to the carnival but i dont want to go alone i so want to go to DEMF but i gotta work all weekend so that blows but anyway im gonna go watch lost i think so bye

Prom

Sun, 22 May 2005 05:29:45 GMT

well prom is over and im hanging out at lauren prom was cool i guess i went with lauren melissa meghan pat and kevin we danced and ate and all the usual dance activites rachel and shane were the prom queen and king and well nick was there with that girl and whatnot but thats cool cuz we talked and took pictures and stuff so thats cool lauren and crystal had a little tiff over justin and pictures and whatnot but thats just cuz crystal is a little crazy. well no after parties for me i guess cuz noone will answer their phones but whatever we have to go waste pictures and stuff so we can take our cameras back but im kinda tired so i am gonna go now and i will write more later so bye yall

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 20:52:02 GMT

well this weekend was the key club convention and it was so much fun well most of it anyway we got there and it took like an hour to get our room keys and then we had to change and what not then off the to the long boring opening ceremony beut during the ceremony my and craig played this games called alpha attack and it was really addictive and i got up to 17 which i was really proud of then we ate and went to the dance which was fun stayed up till about 3 then up again at 9ish then off to forums which were fun we talked about swim saytey and played scene it and talked about cereal since we were in battle creek. then we had free time and we went to burger king and meijer or k mart i dont
remember which and got a mascot since we didnt bring george becuse he is still and amputee because of what happened last year then we went to dinner where they didnt bring us coffee which we were upset about then me and ryan went to starbucks and got coffee and came back to dinner then we were so completly tired and slap happy and hopped up of caffiene and on the way upstairs before the dance this guy in the elevator was all like 7th floor ladies langure 8th floor mens suits 10th floor womens bathing suits and we all stared at each other and tried not to laugh our asses off and then me and ryan got out and let ms callender in there with him and as soon as we got off we busted out laughing and crying cuz we were laughing omg it was awesome then on the way back down there was this girls with an energy drink in the elevator and ryan was like where did you get that she was like what and me and him and few others pointed to the drink and said THAT and we all laughed and ryan was all thats the new commercial we need to tape it and sell it omg it was amazing so much stuff happened and it was so much fun and not to mention that i got to shave half of clints face cuz he never used an electric razor before and i got to see tucan sama and the rice crispie gues and tony the tiget it was so fucking awesome and I LOVE RICHARD BROPHY

so tired i tired of waiting

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 21:08:02 GMT

hey all what up,nmh i dont know why im updating cuz i dont really have anything to say so yea later fools

just wait

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 01:56:59 GMT

Wait for the guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will lie under the stars and listen to your heart beat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you are just as pretty without makeup, one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you, the one who turns to his friends smiles and says, "thats her."

DANG

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 05:54:14 GMT

dude tonite was so much fun me emily sarah and gena went on a scavenger hunt becuase its was free garbage day and we made a list of ten things for each team to find and me and sarah won because we found all of our stuff and emily and gena lost by like two things but thats ok it was hella funand we are gonna do it tomarrow but like 10xs bigger its gonna be awesome